I'm really gender confused.. Can you help? It helps alot if you read the details.?

So to begin with I'm a 13 year old chick. I've alwasy been more of a tom boy and in 3rd grade i even walked around shitless because all the guys could. I've alwasy been attracted to girls but it was hsitant, My mother and I have a VERY close connection, So i literally tell her everything. i told her i thought i was Bi-ual, of course she has no problum with that atall luckely she supports every decision i make and helps me come to a conclusion about it. She told me to wait till i started my period. I had reminded her a few times after that to let her know that it wasnt just a faze. 5 years later i started my period and came out as being Bi-Curious It felt like i was holding back but also, if i was a guy I'd be like flamingly gay, like im so attracted to guys but gay guys mostly (wierd right?) and it almost seems like id be more attracted to them if i was a guy, and it seems like i only like girls if i were a guy. (i thought about thats about 3 months ago) I went to bed thinking about it and had a dream, I was at my high school as a guy and i had the most perfect girlfriend ever and i loved her som much but it wasnt all about the girlfriend, being a guy it almost ffelt, right, like complete. Though i have had a very active dating life i thought i fell inlove with a guy named John, I still love him to this day. (we broke up about 9 months ago) One day we were 'kissing' and it went far, ill just come out and say it.. He fingered me (ew right?) i stopped it a few seconds after, it actually hurt and i didnt much care for it at all. I have had alopt of friends who are 's' because they have and i am a very confident person. but when people talk about its like well i tried it like once or twice but i didnt like it. it didnt feel 'good' i actually rather dislike it. so after all that i just thought alot about it, i had never dressed souly like a girl till 7th grade becasue ive been in Children Youth Services alot for stupid reason (my mother isnt a bad person, i love her isnt that what counts?) so ive grown very close to my sister and i look up to her (my twin actually) thought me and her are identical were litterally mirrior oppisites. but ive alwasy looked up to her and i wanted because regular girls had them (i wanted to be a regular girl so bad, i wanted a normal life i was sick of foster care) now that i have i actuakly hate them. i wear a small bra to flatten them out, i wera boxers under my pants, i even made a fake myspace that was me as a guy (i make a very cute guy if i do say so myself) I made a name (Kris) and now when i look at myself in the mirrior i dont see a girls face, i see a guys face, and when i took a shower a few weeks back, i looked down and was baffled, like what is that? whys that there? i want a flat cheast, i want a '' i want to be able grow my leg hair out and not worry about shaving. Ive actually be ajusting my voice to sound abit deeper, This is where i need your help Its been about 4 months of thinking about this and idk maybe its just a faze, maybe im looking into this WAY to fast im so confused and i just want this figured out.. my mom is gonna try to get me to see a theropist that will help but its also nice to hear when 'the public' has to say (sorry for the long desription, i just wanted you to know everything)